023: Something a Stalker Would Say

[00:00:00] Speaker A: I was maybe five minutes away from calling you and saying, we can't do it tonight. You want to know why? [00:00:10] Speaker B: Why? [00:00:13] Speaker A: Because there was a cardboard box with my laptop, my hard drive and my audio interface. And although it was there until yesterday, it's just fucking gone. Tonight it was 9:50 and I was running all over the house looking for it and apparently the box was recycled and everything in it was placed elsewhere in the house. So I just had to find all my shit and get ready. [00:00:51] Speaker B: How'd you deal with that? [00:00:52] Speaker A: Oh, it's one of those days. How did I deal with it? [00:00:56] Speaker B: Yeah, like, were you cool? Like, ah, man, I just gotta find this stuff where we. Like I fucking left it right here. If I had that box right now, I punch it. That box knows I would punch it in its fucking side. [00:01:10] Speaker A: I, I kept, I kept level headed and I always maintained I probably put it somewhere weird. Please keep a lookout for it. And then ultimately it probably was me. It probably was me who took the stuff out and used the box. But I have no memory of doing that. So I'm just getting over that. That frazzlement, that's a word I just invented. [00:01:41] Speaker B: Like the parents in town. [00:01:45] Speaker A: It'S good you know them. So, you know, it's just, it's just a lot of repeating the same stuff over and over, you know, just. [00:02:00] Speaker B: Yeah, dad, put down the toilet seat. There's women that live here. [00:02:05] Speaker A: No, it's like, what are, how are we gonna move that couch? We're throwing the couch away. I've told you three times, we're throwing the couch away. It's not coming with us, so don't worry about it. You know, it's just a lot of that. But yeah, I mean it was just, it was just a day, dude. And, and the, the first bad thing that happened to me today, you can totally relate to. I know, because you hate shitting in public. [00:02:36] Speaker B: Yep. I cannot stand pooping in public. [00:02:42] Speaker A: Yeah, so I had the Saturday shift today, 6:00am, and I don't ever poop at work. I never have to. My body just doesn't need to. But on Saturdays when I am the only one in the building, I can't help it. I think I feel safe. And I know that the bathrooms are like cleaner when no one's there, so my body is just like, hey, you gotta do this, let's do it. And so wasted half my lunch break taking a shit at work, which I hate. And the worst part about it is that the toilet paper at work is one ply. Oh my God. It's the, it's sandpaper, dude. [00:03:26] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:03:26] Speaker A: I wipe four times and by the time I get halfway clean, there's so much blood that it doesn't matter how much there is. You know what I mean? You ever been there? And the, and worse than that, worse than that is that for days afterward when I'm home wiping with my good Costco paper, I'm still gonna bleed because I'm, I'm wounded. I have an open. [00:03:54] Speaker B: I'm not gonna lie, I don't bleed. But I do have an issue with. I gotta resort to the Alabama wet wipe. [00:04:02] Speaker A: Okay. Yeah, I've never done that myself. It. It gives me the heebies for some reason, but. [00:04:09] Speaker B: Well, it's my spit, so I don't care. [00:04:12] Speaker A: Yeah, there's still something about it. [00:04:14] Speaker B: I used to, If I was, if I was feeling, if I was feeling froggy and I want to jump, I would, I would, I'd scoot myself out real quick and go get some, go get the, the toilet paper wet under the sink and then like hobble back in and you know, do a little nice little clean wipe. But you know, my legs don't move like they used to. [00:04:35] Speaker A: So, you know, I, I definitely could have gotten away with that today, but the thing on Saturdays is that the only people that might come through are security. So, like there is a chance that a security guard's gonna walk the floor, he's gonna come through the bathroom, he's gonna. So now I wouldn't take the risk. [00:04:56] Speaker B: Nice. [00:04:57] Speaker A: That's. That's how it started. And then, you know, just, I got. Luckily the nice thing about the 6am shift is I get off at 2:30 and then I just spent all day just in the middle of a passive aggressive war between my parents and my wife and my daughter decided today's the day that I'm just gonna scream and cry all day long over everything. [00:05:27] Speaker B: And then you're like, look at that work called me back in. I gotta go back in for a second. [00:05:32] Speaker A: Yeah. Hey, you gotta go to a four hour. [00:05:35] Speaker B: Is that a real thing for you, bro? Like your, your wife and your parents go passive aggressive on each other? [00:05:41] Speaker A: Yeah, luckily, luckily it's not full blown. Just arguing and dislike. [00:05:46] Speaker B: Give me an example. [00:05:47] Speaker A: I would. [00:05:47] Speaker B: That'd be crazy. Give me. [00:05:51] Speaker A: Okay, so you know my dad, so I don't really need to explain. Grabbing for the right word is not a strong suit. Right. So he will, he. Whenever my mom is playing with the baby, he. If he's talking to the baby, he will call my mom. Mama. Which is whatever. It's not the right word. But like, it's certainly not a crime. [00:06:23] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:06:23] Speaker A: And my wife. My wife has to correct him. My wife has to go, grandma, Grandma. It's like, all right, it's that kind of stuff. Oh, just spitting out his in. [00:06:42] Speaker B: Oh. [00:06:42] Speaker A: Getting ready for my cigarillo. [00:06:44] Speaker B: Oh, you know what? A Zen sounds great right now, dude. I'm gonna go grab one. You. [00:06:48] Speaker A: You got some. Oh my gosh. [00:06:50] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:06:50] Speaker A: Yeah. I didn't influence you for that, did I? [00:06:53] Speaker B: No, I just. I think I'm out. I've been hitting the gym. [00:07:00] Speaker A: I won't smoke this. I won't smoke this if this is a bummer for you. [00:07:04] Speaker B: No, no, no, not at all. I have. I have cigarillos sitting next to me. I'm just deciding not to hitting the gym. And nicotine opens up the blood, you know, your blood cells, and so I'll throw a couple in there and. And you know, do that. Dude. Went on a six mile run today on my way to my men's group. [00:07:25] Speaker A: Nice. [00:07:26] Speaker B: Yeah. So we drove. [00:07:28] Speaker A: Ran to the men's group. [00:07:29] Speaker B: Yeah. So my, My co workers smell up the joint. You know, my co worker who. Who also goes to the Bible study that we do on Tuesdays. [00:07:42] Speaker A: Stretch marks. [00:07:43] Speaker B: Stretch marks, yeah. Huh. So he kill your guy? Really peculiar guy. Like, he'll pull up just banging fucking Celine Dion on the, you know, like, whoa. [00:07:58] Speaker A: Yeah, dude, not helping that nickname. [00:08:00] Speaker B: And so the other day I had Paula Abdul stuck in my head and I was like, rush, rush, rush. And he was like, what are you singing? And so I was like, ah, it's old Paul Abdul song with Keanu Reeves. I was like, I don't know why I got stuck in my head, dude. He like, it's like a new hit for him, dude. Like, that's all he listens to right now. I was like, oh my gosh. So he came this morning and we were gonna run because everybody's saying like, you know, don't be doing treadmills. Do like real running, you know, like, it's better for you, you know. And so I'm like, dude, I'll run. And so I told him, hey, like, what do we. What if we run to like my men's group? It's. It's a little over six miles away. And so he came over at 5:50 and. Or he came over at 5:30. We drove two separate cars, dropped off one of them and then drove back and ran. And so, yeah, it was about, about an hour and 20 minutes, just running 90 degree weather. Yeah, it's nice, but my thighs are killing me. We had leg day yesterday on top of it. [00:09:10] Speaker A: So is it your quads, like, the top top of your leg? [00:09:14] Speaker B: Yeah, yeah, my quads are killing me right now. [00:09:16] Speaker A: Yeah, yeah. Do some. Do some squats. [00:09:20] Speaker B: What's. What. [00:09:21] Speaker A: We do that out. [00:09:22] Speaker B: That's what we did Thursday, bro. Like, we did all leg day on Thursday, so I was dying. [00:09:27] Speaker A: Yeah, don't, like. Don't, like, work them out. You just gotta stretch them. [00:09:31] Speaker B: Yeah, I gotta. I got my massage. [00:09:33] Speaker A: Motion is lotion. [00:09:34] Speaker B: Oh, nice. [00:09:36] Speaker A: Yeah, that's what my. My trainer said to me. That's right. That's right, folks. I had a trainer for four sessions. [00:09:45] Speaker B: Yeah. He's trying to tell me. He's like, hey, you know, you get a trainer. I'm like, dude, I don't want a trainer, okay? I'm here to work out. I already know what a workout does. I just got to do it. It's not that I need someone to show me how to work out. I just. And he's like, well, you should get one. I'm like, what's that, like, 300 bucks? Nah, man. I don't want a trainer, bro. Like, I ain't got 300 bucks. I know how to work out. [00:10:06] Speaker A: Yeah. Yeah. I. Dude, I. I had to pay 60 an hour, and that was the homie discount. So, like, if I had kept doing it past those four sessions, I would have had to pay 75 a session. And that, at the time, was just undoable. Even more so now I'd argue Ivan. [00:10:28] Speaker B: You remember Ivan? Nah, he's like a bald, buff dude. Wife looked like it. Like a dude. Also, redhead, ccrsm. Anyhow, he trained me for a little bit. That was. That was. That was cool. I mean, it went for, like, a month. But real quick, it is June 28th. Everyone, welcome to Pseudonyms. [00:10:57] Speaker A: Hey, I'm gonna tell you your name. You got a name for me? [00:11:02] Speaker B: I do have a name for you. [00:11:05] Speaker A: Mine I'm pretty happy about. And I do want to circle back to the bad day and how I got out of it with a positive mental attitud. But this is a. This is a fun nickname for a fun occasion. All right, all right. You are Donner, because you and I are heading west, buddy. [00:11:31] Speaker B: Hold on, hold on, man. Are you Googling, bro? [00:11:39] Speaker A: I'll tell you. [00:11:40] Speaker B: Yeah, yeah. The Donner Party is the Donner Party. [00:11:43] Speaker A: Yeah. Yeah, man. All right, all right. And you know, because I just consider you're already west, but I consider you part of my Journey spiritually with me as I head west. [00:11:56] Speaker B: I like that. I like that. I'll call you Hastings. How about that? [00:12:01] Speaker A: All right. I don't know that reference. [00:12:03] Speaker B: That's the famous shortcut that they took called the Hastings cut off. [00:12:07] Speaker A: Ooh. Okay. And that's what got him killed. I'm going to go inside and grab a water real quick. [00:12:17] Speaker B: Oh, my gosh. [00:12:17] Speaker A: I was rushing out here. I'm sorry. I'm going to get a headache if I don't get some water. I'm sorry. [00:12:24] Speaker B: What a chick. As you're walking away. [00:12:42] Speaker A: Really, All I know is the Family Guy joke about that song. What's the family Peter? Peter is Scat the cat or whatever his name is, and he just makes up the lyrics. It's a natural fact. And I'm dressed like a cat. Totally makes it up. Great. [00:13:07] Speaker B: All right, so tell me how your day ended, man. Tell me how you got out of this. Are you drinking? What kind of, what kind of water is that, bro? [00:13:13] Speaker A: I got a coke and a water. I decided to go hard. So what ended up happening? [00:13:23] Speaker B: It. [00:13:23] Speaker A: It didn't stop, man. It didn't stop. I, I, I needed more box. I'm boxing up all my books, and it's a pain in the ass. It's just more than I thought, and I didn't plan well for it, so I ran out of boxes. Oh, Jesus. There's June bugs flying all over me, and that's gonna happen a lot more. [00:13:46] Speaker B: All right, hold on, hold on, hold on. Do June bugs scare you? [00:13:51] Speaker A: No, when something hits my head out of nowhere. [00:13:55] Speaker B: I didn't know. Some people are freaked out by June bugs. I personally love them. [00:14:00] Speaker A: No, no. I'll kill them with my bare hands if I see them coming, okay? If they catch me by surprise, I'm toast. [00:14:06] Speaker B: Now you going big box or small boxes on your books? [00:14:10] Speaker A: Small boxes. [00:14:10] Speaker B: Good. [00:14:11] Speaker A: Because the weight is too much. Yeah, dude, but that's why I'm running out so fast. [00:14:15] Speaker B: The wife, the ex of big country, packed our last house. What'd she do? She thought, hey, I'll get the large U Haul box and put all, all his books in them so I could fit them all into three or four. Rookie, Rookie move mistake, bro. [00:14:35] Speaker A: I mean, if you can power through it, it's not a terrible way to go about it, but it's pretty difficult. It's not, it's not an easy way to move. So I've, I've cleared the top three shelves. I've got five bookcases all next to each other. I'VE got the three top shelves of all of them cleared, and I think I've loaded, like, 15 or 16 boxes already, so. And some of. Oh, and some of them. Some of them got wet because there's a fucking leak in the garage. And it rained like a monsoon on Thursday. And I walk out and all the boxes are right under the leak in the roof in the garage, and they're all fucked, basically. [00:15:18] Speaker B: How's your book? [00:15:19] Speaker A: So we had to buy all new boxes. No. Oh, sorry. They were the boxes not assembled yet. They were just the flat boxes. [00:15:26] Speaker B: Oh, okay. [00:15:27] Speaker A: So not the end of the world. Not the end of the world, but, like, a bummer to lose all the boxes we had already bought. So today I need to buy new boxes. And my wife goes, hey, I'll just order them from Lowe's and you can just go pick them up. That's easier on you. And I said, great, perfect. Do pick up, because I don't want them around in my car. I'll just go pick them up at the counter and take them out myself. I forget all about that. We go to the splash pad. We're having a great time at the splash pad. My. My daughter and I are running through the water, getting wet. Everything's great. We get home. No sooner do I dry off and, like, sit down on the couch, My wife goes, oh, hey, the order's ready to pick up. I'm like, I'm so tired. Like, I've been in the sun. I've been, like, running around wet. Like, I'm tired, and I got four hours of sleep. So I'm like, all right, I'll go run and get it real quick. And she goes, oh, take the baby. [00:16:26] Speaker B: What the fuck? [00:16:27] Speaker A: She needs to get out. She needs. Okay, okay. Thank you. Thank you. Okay. I'm not crazy. That's great. Perfect. It gets worse. [00:16:38] Speaker B: And your dad and your mom, too, because I need some alone time. [00:16:43] Speaker A: So you're not far off. [00:16:45] Speaker B: Yeah. Your mom and dad wanted to go. Okay. [00:16:49] Speaker A: No, no, no. So I already told you, she's having a day. She's crying over everything. [00:16:56] Speaker B: Yeah, yeah. [00:16:57] Speaker A: Screaming and crying. And I'm like, okay, that's fine. But, you know, it's whatever. We'll go pick him up real quick. And she's like, oh, and don't forget, it's a pickup. You got to go in to get him. Like, cool. So I got to put the baby in the car seat. I gotta drive to Lowe's, which is only like three minutes away. I gotta take the baby out. I gotta Walk in, I gotta load up a cart with the boxes, I gotta walk out with the baby, put the baby in, put the boxes in, drive home. Great. Okay. Not thrilled about this, but I'm not gonna complain. Whatever. [00:17:29] Speaker B: Can I try and get ahead of this? Who gave you a grocery list to stop off and grab? [00:17:34] Speaker A: You know what? I should count that as a blessing that that didn't happen. [00:17:39] Speaker B: Okay? I could explore your mom or dad and be like, hey, pick up some mayonnaise and some sandwich meat on the way back. [00:17:48] Speaker A: That would have fit. But what my mom did do is right when I'm about to scoop up the baby and head out, she goes, oh, take your dad with you. Doug. Doug, wake up. Go. Go with Hastings to Lowe's. And of course he's always down. Like, he's down to do whatever. And I. I gotta watch my voice. I don't want to hurt his feelings. But she does this with everything. If I did have to go pick up mayonnaise real quick, I can't just hop in the car and go get it. I gotta take him. And he's always. He's always down to go, and he's always down. [00:18:28] Speaker B: I almost. I was. I was almost okay with you canceling tonight, dude. Like, I was going off of. I stayed up last night playing Mario kart with number three. And we played until 2am and then I had to get up before for this run. Mind you, the original bedtime was latest 10:30, but we started playing at like 9. And then I was like, hey, I want to go to bed by 9:30. Okay. Hey, 10:30, okay. Hey, you beat me in a couple games. So, like, we're running it back and we're going best of five. And these are eight rounds. There are eight five minute rounds. So. So, yeah, and there's no. Like, you win a couple of the rounds, you win that thing. No, you play all eight rounds and it adds up the total. And then that's one. One game. So. Yeah, so I went to bed at 2 o' clock and yeah, it was. It was crazy. It was. It was horrible. Crazy. But good time. [00:19:24] Speaker A: Are there certain games that. That come up? Because, like, it's a different game each round, right? [00:19:29] Speaker B: Yeah, we played Mario Karts where you. [00:19:32] Speaker A: You look, you look at her and you're like, gotcha. This is my game. [00:19:37] Speaker B: No, no, we, we. So we played Battle on Mario Kart where you drive around the balloons and you try and kill everybody and, you know, hit them with your shells and stuff. So, like, she was killing me, dude. Like, for the first two. Two games, she killed me. And I was like, I don't know. What's up, dude? Like, I don't know. Like, I'm better than this. Like, this is chaos. So then like Luigi's, Luigi's Mansion came up and I was like, I'm gonna go to the top level and just keep grabbing those boxes where nobody is. I'm just gonna shoot them off the edge of you. Dude, we killed him. Like 30 kills to five. And she was like, you can't do that. You can't do that no more. I was like, you come get me, but I ain't going nowhere. So we did that. But yeah, it was, it was. Yeah, it was a rough day, dude. I got home, cleaned the house, watched a little bit of like a documentary on Blackhawk down. And then like, I was about to just like kind of go out and number four wanted some hair dye and so I had to go pick up hair dye. Then I had to dye her hair. And then I was like, okay. And then my buddy called from men's group and was like, hey, I'm in the area. You cool if I stop by with the kids? I'm like, why not? Why not stop by with the kids? [00:20:52] Speaker A: Why the. [00:20:55] Speaker B: So he gets here and, you know, it was like small conversation. We had our kids with us, so we couldn't really talk and we're kind of talking about our exes and so forth. But dude, speaking of my ex, this is a great transition. You're a great segue. She's on this. The world's ending. Like, she is on this. [00:21:12] Speaker A: We're going to like biblical stuff. [00:21:13] Speaker B: Like, yeah, we're going to war. The visions and the dreams everybody's having that they're posting now. Mind you, this is someone that's adamant. She doesn't have tick tock. But she keeps commenting on all the news feeds I've seen on TikTok. She has seen somewhere else though. And now she's talking about all these visions and dreams and I'm like, that's funny because my TikTok is riddled with those two. Like, what are you seeing these visions and dreams on by just random people. Like, what. What app you want? I don't have social media. Oh, okay, you're just anyhow sure. So she's like. She calls me the other night, she's like, hey, you never really engage with me when I talk about the end times. But like, we have to figure stuff out. What are we gonna do? Where are we gonna go? And I'm like, yeah, I don't really have a thought on it. And she was like, well, like, what are we gonna do? I was like, well, because of you, I can't really own a gun. So I just figured you'd go. You'd go to. You'd go to house, you know, like, figured you would go to his house or something. She's like, well, no, like, we gotta have all of our kids together. And, you know, I'll follow your lead. You tell me what to do. You know, we'll go. And I got. I got tents and I got gas cans, extra gas cans. So I'm like, okay, so let's. Let's walk through this. I go, where are you thinking? She goes, I'm thinking Bakersfield. Okay. I said, san Diego's one of the places. [00:22:31] Speaker A: Hang out with Fieldy. [00:22:32] Speaker B: Yeah. I'm like, san Diego is one of the places they're thinking of. Of. You know, that would be a nuclear attack If. If there was going to be one. Fallout goes to Kingman, Arizona. Bakersfield is right in that line. So that's out. This gas can you got, is it full already? No. Okay. Do you understand there's gonna be chaos on the roads if, like, war does break out and it's, like, in our backyard. You're gonna take potential risk on waiting at a gas station and waste time to now want to get your gas tank full. I don't really think you thought about this. And she's like, well, you know, what do you want to do? I'll follow your lead. And I'm like, yeah, that's. Yeah, yeah, we could do that. We could do that. We could do that. I'm just saying, whatever, because honestly, I look at it like this. You now want to talk about family unit, end times. You now want to follow my lead, end times. But yet when things are peaceful, you don't want to, like, do any of that, nor do you really want to live your life like you fear God or you. You're anticipating an end time. You know, I was like, it's. It's just, you know, I know God knows your heart, but by looking at your lifestyle. Do you know his? I don't know. You know, and so I was just. I was so annoyed with it. But number four has been at my house now going on week three because she went. She asked if she could stay. I had her one week. Week on, week off. I had a one week. Then she goes, hey, can. Can. So it was. It was big countries week. Then it was mine. And she goes, hey, Can I stay at mom's for an extra couple days because of, you know, my friends going to her work and we play, and I'm like, yeah, sure, that's cool. So, you know, big country gets. Oh, my gosh, I'm so excited. It's so awesome you want to stay. I was like, all right, you put a lot on it, but that's cool. So then I get her for the end of the week. Yeah, I get her for the end of the week. And then her week's coming up. And number four goes, can I stay here for the week? Like, yeah, let me. Let me run it by your mom. Hey, number. Number four wants to stay with me for the week, yada, yada. And she's like, okay. So then, like, I go to pick her up. She had her for the weekend. I go to pick her up on Sunday night. And she goes, yeah. I was telling her, like, why do you. Why do you want to leave? Like, why do you want to go to your dad's? You know, I'm gonna miss you so much. And I'm like, oh, that's funny. I didn't. I didn't do that when she was coming to yours. Oh, I was just giving her a hard time. Yeah, but still, I didn't do that. Like, I didn't try and trip her into staying. And she was. I was just giving her a hard time. So then, like, she comes for the week. She gets picked up on Friday. I drop her off on Friday. Sunday night, she comes back to my place for. For the week. But now it's only gonna be Monday, Tuesday. So I pick her up Monday for Monday. Tuesday. She ends up staying Wednesday. Wednesday comes around. I drop off for the moms. Wednesday night, I get a phone call, 8:30, I'm. I'm ready for bed, and it's her. So I answer. I'm like, what's up, baby girl? She's sobbing and she's just like, you know, I asked mom to help me find my nails, and mom's, you know, cussing and yelling and, you know, she left my room a mess and she won't help me clean it up. And she's crying and I'm like, dude, what the fuck? She's like, can I just come back to your house? I said, let me text your mom and ask her. So I text her, mom, ask her. I get a thumbs up to my text. I'm like, is that a yes? No. She's like, sure. So I pick her up and she's like, yeah. Mom tells me that, like, I'm a liar and Jesus doesn't like liars and. Yeah, right. Yeah. So I'm like, dude, Jesus doesn't like when you lie. That is a fact. But Jesus still loves you. Like Jesus loves the liar. He just doesn't like when they lie. I was like, so, like, yeah, and. [00:26:22] Speaker A: How do you know that? How do you. How do you know that? That he loves you despite that? What did he do for your lies? [00:26:32] Speaker B: So then I'm like, so now I'm defending her mom. Your mom's probably tired. She's probably stressed out. You know, people say things when they're stressed out. [00:26:41] Speaker A: You know, you are, you are a standup guy, dude. Like, I know, I know you. You don't. You don't talk the ex and you don't, you know, put ideas in the kids heads or anything like that. I don't know if I'd have the strength, dude. [00:26:57] Speaker B: I really wanted to tell her that, but I was like, you know what, sweetheart? Like, you know, she's probably just stressed out. She doesn't mean those things. Like, you know, I was like, you know, like sometimes when I'm tired and like, you, you know, you'll. You'll do something and I kind of like respond like, oh, come on. I go, you know, it's not right because you're the child and you're. You're still in your learning phase. I said, but, you know, people do it sometimes. I was like, so just give your mom some grace. She still loves you. And if you want to go back tonight, I'll take you back. Like, you know, and she goes, no, I think she needs some time alone. I think she needs a couple days. And I'm like, okay, so she's been here. [00:27:34] Speaker A: Very mature. [00:27:36] Speaker B: Yeah, so she's been here since, but. And then I have her this whole week. So I'm like, I'm cool with it, dude. I. I just feel bad for her because it's like she's with some, you know, I mean, she's with some. Somebody who's like, it's end times. Okay, well then stop pulling up, playing nipsey Hussle with my kid in the car. You know, like that's something that, Something you listen to when you're by yourself or with other adults. You don't listen to it with a kid in the car. Quit having your car smell like a fucking dispensary. You know? Like, come on, dude, get your shit together. [00:28:11] Speaker A: Yeah. Yeah. That's nuts. [00:28:13] Speaker B: It pushes me to have you. [00:28:17] Speaker A: Great transition. I was Just wondering, like, have you. I mean, it's probably not even a can of worms worth opening, but have you ever tried to engage her on some of the end time stuff and just be like, ah, I kind of see it like this. [00:28:34] Speaker B: I mean, I told her, I said, hey, look, here's the thing. She's like, I can't wait for the Rapture. I said, don't get your hopes up. [00:28:41] Speaker A: Because you're gonna be waiting a while. [00:28:43] Speaker B: Like, historically, God's never removed his people from tribulation. They've gone through it. He's been there for them, but he hasn't removed them from it. I said, so I don't know where you stand, you know, on your end times view. I said, but, yeah, we're in for the long haul on this one, you know? And, yeah, because of your allegations. [00:29:05] Speaker A: Well, you can tell where she stands. [00:29:07] Speaker B: Oh, yeah. And I said, because of your allegations of me stalking you in quotes. I can't own a gun. So we're going to play. We're going to have a really rough time selling your ass to. Literally selling. Selling your ass to get by. I mean, I'm not. I'm not. I'm a pimp. [00:29:28] Speaker A: I. I know. Do what I got to do in these streets. I. I know. Like, you know, we know the story on the podcast, and obviously I side with you. I believe you. But it is just so funny for anyone who doesn't know to hear a guy go, quote, unquote, stalking you. That sounds exactly like something a stalker would say. [00:29:56] Speaker B: She was like, he sits outside the house. Like, the whole thing, these reports. And when I addressed them after we became, like, cordial, I was like, dude, I don't want it to be like this, you know? I was like, you made it like this. You did. [00:30:09] Speaker A: I was like, yeah, but then you're gaslighting. [00:30:12] Speaker B: Yeah, I was like, the allegations in that report say that neighbors bring. One neighbor that saw me because I wasn't there. I didn't waste my time on you, bro. Like, I went to work and went home. I didn't want to. Why would I sit outside our old house? That's fucking weird. I'm not that guy. [00:30:27] Speaker A: He's sitting outside. He's sitting outside the house. I was dropping off our daughter. [00:30:36] Speaker B: But she, like, wants to be like, friend friend. And I'm just like, I'm not interested in being friend friend. This is strictly business. This is strictly. You're the mother of my kids. I'm picking them up or I'm dropping them off. I'm not sitting here having. [00:30:47] Speaker A: We got, we got 10 years, dude. [00:30:50] Speaker B: She'll sit there and want to talk like, oh my gosh, the end times. And what are your thoughts? And it. I'm like, I don't really have thoughts, you know? Well, oh my gosh, like, things are getting so crazy over there. Yeah. But let's just think about it. I mean, realistically, they might have some sleeper cells that are suicide bombers in the major cities. So we have emergency responders. That's probably all that's going to happen. [00:31:09] Speaker A: Mm. We. And we will talk about prayer, but we, we just finished Lost Again. And you know, that's like my favorite show of all time, but there were these two characters that kind of disappear and you don't know what happens to them. [00:31:29] Speaker B: And like, I'm pretty sure everybody disappeared in that show. [00:31:33] Speaker A: Nope. [00:31:34] Speaker B: Yeah, that's why they're lost, right? Isn't that why they're on an island? [00:31:38] Speaker A: Oh, sure, sure, sure. I thought you meant something else. Yeah, but like, of the people on the island, these, these two kind of disappear. No one knows what happened to them. And like a season later they come upon them in the woods and they built like a little, you know, hut. And they're living out in the woods and they're just like, we're just not interested. Like, you know, we're just not doing the drama anymore, you know, we're retired. They were like an older couple and, and you don't need to know the full context of, of what it is, but they were like, Jack has a bomb. And, and the old lady just goes, so what, so what, you're gonna try to stop him now? Like, whatever. And, and the, the guy just goes, you know, they're, they're like, well, we could die if this happens. We could die. And, and the guy just goes, so we die. I don't know, like, we're just interested in being together, you know, that's all that matters in the end, you know, like, we've got a limited amount of time either way, you know, and it just kind of got me thinking about like times like this where it's just like, yeah, fucking governments are gonna do what governments are gonna do, man. Like your day to day for the most part is not gonna be interrupted. Don't be so like end times minded that you're not earthly good. You know, just like work, spend time with your family, worship God. It's like, what, what else is there to do? You're gonna waste your time if you do anything else long term. [00:33:07] Speaker B: So we're talking about this in our men's group. And I was like, you know, because, like, a lot of the guys in the men's group struggle with pornography and sexual purity. And I'm like. I said, you know, here's the thing, dude. I said. And they were talking about, like, don't get caught up, like, when you fall, like, don't let. Don't let it keep you from, like, come in a group or, you know, going before the Lord or anything. Because a lot of them are like, oh, man, I just feel shame and this and that. I'm like, here's the other part of it, dude. I was like, it doesn't have to be sin if you're like. If you're consumed with, let's just say end times. Because I shared with them, you know, the ex. I was like, in times, I was like, dude, I mean, like, it's the same thing. You're taking your eyes off the prize, you know, like, you're just. Yeah. Your whole hope or your whole day is being dictated not by what you say you worship, but by what you think is going to happen. It's just ridiculous. It's ridiculous. [00:33:58] Speaker A: Yeah. And I mean, and. And this is actually a good segue to talk about prayer because that really should be where we're at day to day. But in the Olivet discourse, that's what Jesus says. He says there's going to be false messiahs and rumors of wars, but the end is not yet. And like, I. I think he's talking about the destruction of Jerusalem in there. But even if you apply that to the end of the world, it's still like, these are the beginning of the birth pangs, you know what I mean? Like, it's. It's. Yeah, it's just. I don't know. What are you gonna do that's gonna change things so drastically, you know? [00:34:37] Speaker B: Yeah. Nothing. You're. There's nothing you're gonna do. No matter how prepared you think you are, you don't have all the info. You're not gonna be prepared. Yeah. [00:34:47] Speaker A: You know, let's say. Let's say the pre trib, like, dispensational things. True. Okay, let's say it. Your gas can is no match for the writer on the black horse. Do you get it? [00:35:05] Speaker B: Yeah. All right, so. So we're talking about prayer tonight. We'll get into prayer now, man. Prayer is. [00:35:12] Speaker A: I'm so glad. I know I'm interrupting you. I'm so glad you said that thing. I'm not. Haven't had a Drop. But I'm so glad that you said that thing about your. Your men's study, because the very first thing on my prayer list for personal is to go to Christ in the midst of sin instead of running from him. [00:35:35] Speaker B: Dudes. And honestly, dude, it's crazy because, you know, we meet every Tuesday. It's a solid little group. Dude, I go to a men's group every Saturday. I haven't been going lately, but it's in every Saturday. It's about 100 dudes. I'd say about 75 of them got their foot in. One foot in the grave. You know, they're over, like, I don't know, 80. And so, like, we don't really connect, but, you know, it's neither here nor there. They're cool guys anyways. But this group I'm with, there's one guy my age, and the rest are, like, 20, and, you know, no older than 26 or 24 or something like that anyhow. So they're younger guys. And, like, it's really cool to, like, you know, like, they come and they're just like, man, like, we went to the gym on Thursday, and Thursday afternoon, one of the guys texted me and was like, hey, dude, I've been struggling with, like, wanting to watch porn. Could you pray for me? So I pulled the. I pulled stretch marks aside. I said, hey, James is reaching out for prayer. Let's pray for him. So we prayed for him, and you can leave that name in. He's. It's. It's a common name, and nobody knows him. And so we prayed for him, and then we went to the gym, and then we leave the gym. And stretch marks is like, man, I fell today. And I was like, what do you mean? He was like, you know, I was like, wait. So that half hour you needed to take a. And do your laundry, you was really just dropping a beat. You were just in there just rubbing one out. You know what I mean? Like, I. I made fun of him, you know? He was like. He was like, yeah, man. You know, now I just feel so much shame and this. And I was like, you should feel some shame, dude. Like, shame on you. And then I was like, no, honestly, dude, like, don't let that. Don't let. Don't let that keep you from entering, you know, into prayer and going before the Lord. And I'm talking about that. And then I was listening. I've been listening to sermons about prayer from Journey Community Church, and. And they were talking about confessing. James says, confess your sins to one another. You know, prayers of a righteous man avail much. And I was like, dude, it was actually really good that you confessed that. He was like, really? I was like, yeah, dude. Like, you know, you're. You're trying to be held accountable. You're confessing it so that it's out there. You're not trying to be, like, fake. I said, and. And, you know, and I just want you to know, like, Christ is. Is just. Christ is. Forget the verse, but it's like, something forgiven and just. And I said, or faithful. Faithful and just. And I said, he's faithful and just to forgive us of our sins. I said, so do you think he's faithful? And just. He was like, yeah. I was like, dude, so enter into the throne, you know, before the throne of grace. So it's not the throne of judgment. It's not the throne of righteousness. Throne of grace. Enter in, Let it be known and get back on the horse. You know, Don't. Don't let it keep you off. And so, like, it's honestly a cool little group, but I. I, you know, like, I'm so glad, like, some of them. I referred to our podcast, and I was like, hey, check out this. This. This. This episode. Like, it changed what I thought about pornography. Like, honestly, like, I have fallen here and there, I said, but it's not as often. Like, and now I'm looking at it in such a different way. Like, a couple weeks ago, you know, I got a little excited and came home and, you know, dropped a beat. And then a couple hours later, I was like, man, I'm kind of. Kind of ready for another round, so. Dropped another one, you know, I mean, like, it was. It was like I was 20 again, and the next day I'm cooking breakfast, and I'm just aroused, and I'm like, that's the issue with it. That's the issue. Like. Like, now I'm just. It's aroused for no apparent reason. I'm cooking bacon, you know? I mean, like, I'm not. [00:39:20] Speaker A: Oh, well, you didn't tell me it. [00:39:22] Speaker B: Was bacon, but you know what I mean? Like, that's what it does. Like, it just. It. Yeah, it just. I don't know, man. It's weird, but it was. It's cool to have a group of guys that are so young that are just like, hey, I don't want to be this. I want to be better. I want to protect my mind. I want to have pure thoughts. I want to look at my partner or my bride in a positive way and not, you Know, desire her, like, to be as one of those women on the tv. [00:39:56] Speaker A: Mm. [00:39:57] Speaker B: So. [00:40:01] Speaker A: Yeah, it's just. It's like, totally against our nature to run to Christ in prayer when we're feeling that way or when we've done something. And, I mean, it makes sense because all the worldly religions are like that. You know, you do have to atone before you can come before the deity again. You know, even. Even in the more, like, atheist religions, it's still kind of like that. And it just makes sense because that's, like, how people naturally are, you know, Adam and Eve hid from God after here. [00:40:40] Speaker B: Here's the thing, dude. I've realized, like, when I got laid off, I was in prayer and I was fasting because I really wanted to know, like, lord, am I doing something that's keeping me laid off for three. Three months? You know, I'm entering in month three, like, what the heck is going on? And as I entered into prayer more and more, because that's all I was doing was just, like, walking around the house. I was engaging regularly, but when I was in my mind, it was like, you know, like, Lord, you know, I'm just praying for different people. I'm not even praying for my situation. I'm also praying for revelation on what's going on in my life, but I'm praying more or less for other people. And, dude, it kept me. It kept me from, like, wanting to watch porn. I didn't. It wasn't that, like. It was like, don't do it. It was just like, I didn't have the desire. [00:41:31] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:41:32] Speaker B: You know, and I'm telling these guys, like, hey, dude, like, the more you pray, honestly, it's not so much the less you sin, but I guarantee you it's the less you struggle with. With certain sin. Like, pornography, for one. You won't really think about pornography if you're constantly in prayer, if you will. Like, and you don't have to be constant. But I mean, like, if prayer is so strong in your life, you won't struggle with. With. With pornography. You might, but I guarantee you'll be more victorious over it. I don't know how strong your addiction is. I can't. I can't say. This is like the. You know, the. The end all for everyone, but, you know, you're probably not going to struggle as much. So there was like a month that I had to reintroduce my hand to my penis every shower because I just forgot about it, you know, like. [00:42:25] Speaker A: Please don't meet me. [00:42:27] Speaker B: Yeah, I was Like, I gotta watch it. [00:42:31] Speaker A: Yeah. So, like, what did you. Did you have a definition of prayer you wanted to start with? I interrupted you. [00:42:41] Speaker B: No, I actually, you know, some of them say I get. I get some themes, but the basic definition would be prayer is a spiritual communication with God in which a person expresses adoration, confession, thanksgiving, and supplication. They use basically John. John Piper's acronym of Acts. It's both personal relationship, practice and a divine means of grace through which believers speak to God, listen for his voice, align with his will, and receive strength, peace, and guidance. Basically, prayer is talking with God and listening for his response. And I started to go through EM Bound's complete works of prayer, but I didn't have enough time for that one. But there were some key. There are some key things, you know, like, sin will definitely hinder your prayer life, you know, and there's so many. There's like nine different layers of prayer. You could have, like, personal, you could have intercession, you can have corporate, you can have adoration, confession. There's just. There's so many, you know, but that's usually, like, as much as I can't stand Big Country, I pray for her. Every time I pray, you know, Like, I just. I just pray that, you know, most. For the most part, that whatever she hasn't dealt with, she deals with, she seeks him, and that the bonds of. Of marijuana will, you know, release from her life. Because, like, again, like, I don't struggle with smoking weed. Like, do I like it? I do. But you know what happens when I don't buy it? I don't do it. Simple as that, Hastings. I just don't do it. It's like. Cigarettes. [00:44:35] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:44:36] Speaker B: Like, there are nights where I'm sitting here and I'm like, man, I'd love to go out and have, like, a cigarette on the patio, but I don't have any. So therefore, let's move on with life. [00:44:45] Speaker A: I wonder what that's like. [00:44:48] Speaker B: Dude, honestly, I just stopped buying them and. And at work, I would buy them. [00:44:52] Speaker A: You've always been that way. You've always been able to just stop, and I've never been able to do that. I've always been jealous. Dude, if we. If we're going on a trip together, you'll just not bring it, and then you just won't do it. [00:45:09] Speaker B: Well, there'll be times where I doubt it. I regret it. There's times of regret where I'm like, man, I wish I would have bought cigarettes, but unless I go buy them, I'm not gonna. I'm not gonna be able to do it, you know? [00:45:20] Speaker A: Yeah. So why. Why do you think it's so motorcycles? Why do you think it's so difficult for us to. It. It feels distraction. Like if we. If we believed. Yes, but if we believed prayer was what we said at it is, wouldn't that just be all you'd want? I mean, like, all you'd want to do think of like the most if you had an anti gravity machine in your house. Are you ever coming out of that thing? Like, wouldn't you just always be using that? [00:46:01] Speaker B: Yeah, but no, because, I mean, we have so many distractions at our fingertip. Like, I take moments of spending five weeks in Mexico with TQ Take moments of right after the separation, living in an apartment where I didn't have any Internet or anything like that. A lot of. A lot of everything I did changed. You know, all of a sudden I'm writing, you know, I'm reading more. I'm trying to, you know, analyze myself more, I'm praying more. It's the same thing when I was in Mexico for five weeks. I mean, we were in Wasabi, Sinaloa, and there was nothing to do, you know what I mean? I'm with a church group, so that included women. So I'm just sitting there like, man, what do you do? Okay, well, have a conversation with God, you know, like, God, who you want me to pray for right now. Like, who should I be praying for? It was just. It was. It's when you have no distractions. It's different now. Fast forward. You get me on. You put a phone in my hand and yeah, I can sit on the couch and tick tock it for hours, you know? [00:47:08] Speaker A: Yeah, yeah, I was reading. I'm reading a book right now that's pretty cool called the Secret Pulse of Time. And it's all like. I don't want to say it's science. It's pop science for sure. It's definitely like dumbed down for layman, but it's all about the neurology of like time perception. And so like things like, why do you know, things we hate seem to take longer than things we love and good times fly by and once you get older, time starts to speed up. Really, you know, bet like, why is all that? So they're. They're just like neurologically explaining it and they talked about the phones and just when you are in a routine doing the same stuff every day, it just. Your time perception is basically based on your memory. And the more your long term Memory cuts out because it's not useful. You drive home the same way every day. Your long term memory is not going to remember every drive home. So every drive home just starts to disappear from your memory and time starts to go faster basically. And so distractions of the phone are like literally, literally making us age faster and die quicker. [00:48:39] Speaker B: But I totally get it because, you know, just, just today's run, I mean, like, I'll remember every step for a good minute until that becomes a habit. Yeah, because I hated it. I hated every step and therefore my mind focused on how much I hate this place. Like, I hated the fact that it felt like 9am at 6:15. I hated the fact that, you know, like I just hated the fact that how my legs hurt. Everything about it. I was just hot. I was fucking dying out there and I'm like, this sucks. Mind you, you take the morning, you reroute it and I'm sitting in front of the TV watching a basketball game. Time's gonna fly by a lot, lot faster for me. All of a sudden it's gonna be 99am and I'm like, Holy crap. Like I wasted three hours. I just wasted three hours watching a basketball game because you know, like, I'm not thinking about it, I'm involved. Even if it's something new to me. Watching basketball might be new to me, but it's something I enjoy and I'm involved in it. Therefore I'm not counting minutes. I'm caught in the moment, you know what I mean? Like, and so yeah, I totally get the whole, the whole concept behind that. And yeah, your routine, every day it is the same. It's great. For you guys who do time change daylight savings, we don't. So all of a sudden it went from like not being light until 7am to you leave the house at 5am or 4:30 and it's already, the sun's already coming up. And so like by what would usually feel like 2:00 clock is just 10:00am yeah, it's like, damn, this sucks, dude. [00:50:23] Speaker A: Yeah, it's. That has, that has its own problems. But, but I, I find, I don't find that with prayer. I find even when prayer is a routine, I don't find that like the time is flying by or that it's dredging on. It's like I'll really be enjoying it and I'll think like, well, surely I've been praying for like 30 minutes. Nope, it's been seven. No, go for another, go for another 23. Like if you set apart 30 minutes, and you feel like, surely that timer should have gone off by now as, like, nope. You know, and it's just. It is something about engaging with God in the Word, in meditation, in prayer. It is something. I mean, it's literally kind of engaging in eternity, and it. It really, you know, doesn't do that to your brain. It is. It is just a better use of your time. [00:51:27] Speaker B: But I think part of that is the fact that we don't hear an audible response, and it's just us rambling on for the most part. You know what I mean? Like, you take something like stretch marks was over the other day, and we. We were at the pool, and he was like, how long can you hold your breath? And I'm like, I hold it for, like, ever, dude. So I went underwater, I held it. I came up, and he was like, dude, that was like. Like, that was like two minutes. Like, that was a really long time. And I'm like, It felt like 30 seconds. Like, it just. It felt like 30 seconds. Now you take those same two minutes, and you have me sit quietly before the Lord, and it could feel like an eternity. You know what I mean? Like, it's. It's. It's. I don't know. You know, maybe it was the fact that I'm in my mind underwater. I'm thinking, you got to beat this. This. This. This. You know, this guy where. Take me out of the water. I'm sitting before the Lord, and I'm like, man, like, am I gonna hear you? You know, like, you know, all of a sudden, you start focusing on time sometimes in your prayer versus, like, just praying. You're like, you know, I mean, like, so I think it's just the silence. The silence of. And I think people are uncomfortable with being by themselves and being silent. No. [00:52:54] Speaker A: No. And. And I don't know if you ever have this experience where, like, most of the time you're praying, and we should probably talk about my lack of prayer, because I feel like a Pharisee talking about this. But you're praying most of the time. It's. It's what prayer always feels like. And it. It's. It's a good thing. You enjoy it. It's. You feel closer to God, and then sometimes you pray, and it literally feels like you're talking to yourself. Just feels like you're talking to a wall, and you have to kind of ask yourself, like, am I. You know, am I doing something wrong? Like, am I coming before him in an unworthy manner? Like, is there something going on that's different today than other times. And it's, like, frustrating because if you don't just fall into that normal feeling that you get in prayer, you just. You feel like you're entitled to it. [00:53:55] Speaker B: I don't know. Unless I get answers that I. That I ever feel like I got closer to God. Like, I can. Looking at the history of my lack of desire to do things of the world, if you will. But, like, if I look back and I'm like, oh, wow, all this, the last three weeks, I really haven't wanted to go grab a drink with someone at a bar or go talk to chicks or. But then on the flip side of it, you know, like, when I'm praying, unless I get, like, an answer, like, there have been times where I, you know, I've just been pursuing him and I've. I've felt confident, I felt faithful. I'm asking something in his will and by his name and, like, it comes to fruition, and I'm like, that's only you, God. Like, that's awesome. But in the midst of the prayer, I don't know if I absolutely feel closer, you know, But I also think. But are there experiences different? You know, like, some people hear God way clearer. Like, there's a guy in our group who has visions, you know, and he's like, oh, this is what the Lord told me. And he'll write down all these words that he's like, I don't know, you know, he's just reading them to us. And I'm like, dude, that's. That's crazy stuff. I don't get that. You know, But I think that's just how I'm built. [00:55:12] Speaker A: Yeah. Maybe that's what's more frustrating about it, because I don't get that. Yeah, I don't get audible responses or any of that. Which. Which kind of raises the question of, like, why can it feel so different sometimes when it's always the same? Like, it's always just me praying. But then sometimes it just feels like, like all I can say is that there is a profound feeling of I am alone in a room talking to myself. I am not praying to God right now. [00:55:48] Speaker B: Yeah, I don't. Honestly, I don't know if I necessarily feel that because I. I know he knows all my. My thoughts, you know? Yeah. [00:55:56] Speaker A: Like, intellectually, you know that. But then you just don't feel, which. Which I guess raises the question of, like, what am I normally feeling? That's so much more, I guess, divine than what I'm feeling now. And that I don't know, because I don't ever feel like it's particularly special other than just the privilege that I have to go before him. But, like, yeah, I don't know. It's. It's. It's just something every once in a while, someone. Someone knows what I'm talking about. But it. It seems to be kind of a rare thing that people experience. Yeah. [00:56:36] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:56:37] Speaker A: But. Yeah, I don't know. Yeah, man. I'm just not good at it. [00:56:43] Speaker B: I don't know if it's necessarily a. A good at it or not good at it thing either, you know, Like. [00:56:49] Speaker A: Oh, I. I was. I was gonna say I'm just not good at, like, doing it regularly. I'm not good at making a routine of it. It's always just like, I'll, you know, I'll be praying, like, what I would consider to be a good amount. That's relative. But, you know, what I. What I consider to be a good amount. And then for three days in a row, and then all of a sudden it's been five days and I didn't even notice that I wasn't praying, you know? [00:57:16] Speaker B: Yeah. [00:57:16] Speaker A: And I bet you have a wealth of information of how to. [00:57:21] Speaker B: No, better. I've done that. I've done that where, like, I. I kind of put prayer on the side and I start listening to sermons on the way to work instead of praying. And then, like, there comes a point where I'm like, wow, like, my life has been different the last couple weeks. What's changed? And it's honestly, like, my morning prayer time has changed usually, you know, and honestly, what I do is I set an alarm for every day. It's a. It's a reminder. It's not an alarm, but it's a reminder. It hits every morning at 5am and says, Pray for 15 minutes. And I don't mark that reminder complete until I go to bed. So every time I look at notifications on my phone, that reminder is there that says, pray for 15 minutes. And it'll just stop me with whatever I'm doing sometimes. And I'm like, okay, like, while I'm walking, I'm gonna pray while I'm walking from, like, destination A to B. I'm just gonna say a little prayer. And, you know, it might only be enough time to cover one person, you know, on my prayer list, but they're going to get covered today twice, you know, because they were in the morning prayer and now they're in the second prayer. And, you know, and then next time I have A quiet moment to pray. I'll. I'll pray either what's on my mind or for the next person on my list. [00:58:36] Speaker A: Nice. Yeah. Praying in the car is huge because most of us drive every single day and drive a good amount and it's probably like at the beginning of the day and the end of the day. So it's like, it's a really good time to just pray while you're driving, if you can multitask that way. [00:58:55] Speaker B: Yeah, I take the long way to work just so I can pray. [00:58:59] Speaker A: Nice. [00:59:00] Speaker B: Like, I take the roads just so I could like, make sure I get my full time of prayer in and get my. At least the people on my list covered. [00:59:10] Speaker A: Yeah. Is that a pretty big list? [00:59:15] Speaker B: No, I mean, like, it's. It's. You know, it's. At first I. I always start. So like, I always start with. I don't know how you open, but I. I tend to open the same way. And sometimes I have to like, kind of change it because I don't. Yeah. That almost burned your whole face. [00:59:32] Speaker A: I almost burnt. Dude, I smell hair. I think I burned my mustache. [00:59:36] Speaker B: It looks like. [00:59:39] Speaker A: Don't. Don't do that. Don't do that. [00:59:41] Speaker B: Don't do that. You look like the opposite Hitler Stache. [00:59:46] Speaker A: Ah, brutal. [00:59:49] Speaker B: But I'll open my prayer with like thanking God for his character because I know it's because of him and his character. That is the only reason 1. I am where I'm at today, even just in faith. And I'm not even talking about career, but career included, to, you know, just because he is the only true thing that doesn't change. And his promises, whether I'm. I hold up my end or not, are still his promises. And he. He holds up his end. And so then that, you know, that's to me, that's the adoration. And then of course, I'll move into confession if I've done something or, you know, just ask him to check my heart. Then I go into Thanksgiving again. I think Thanksgiving is like also kind of like adoration. I feel like it is. And then I'll go into like supplication, which is where petition I'll pray for. I'll pray. Oh, I'll do general prayer over like missionaries and people all over the world. And then I'll do personal. [01:00:55] Speaker A: Join hands. Did I say love swing? [01:01:03] Speaker B: Oh, that's a Love train song. [01:01:05] Speaker A: It is Love train. [01:01:07] Speaker B: But I'll usually start with like my ex. First my daughters, then my ex wife. And then from there it's you Know my group. Then I go into my friends and those, like my pen pal, you. You know, other people. And then I usually cover the people that are currently in my sphere that are not saved. I pray for their salvation. And then I'll go into, like, general prayer over certain groups I. I'm with or whatnot. And then I pray over my job. I always pray over my job and. And the day work. [01:01:48] Speaker A: Nice. Yeah, I've never. I've never done that. I would like to do that because I'm. I know I'm only at my job for four more business days, but I really like my job, and I hope that I get to continue doing the same kind of job out in California. But I get to take calls from people who are frustrated and maybe stressed about something at their job not working, and I get to fix that problem for them and get them on with their day. [01:02:24] Speaker B: Yeah. [01:02:25] Speaker A: And not for nothing, the profits that my company makes, a huge percentage of those profits go to charities and churches and things doing gospel work. So, you know, it all kind of connects to. To, you know, a greater purpose that I can kind of wrap my mind around. And it. I bet my attitude would be a lot different going into the day praying for those things because, like, I've got. I've got one of the better attitudes on the team. Like, a lot of people are really cynical toward the people who call us and they think they're stupid and they're lying about what they, you know, did with this device or whatever. And it's like, I've just never viewed it that way, dude. It's just like, you're just talking to someone who doesn't know what they're doing. Yeah, that's what you're there for, you know, Or. [01:03:22] Speaker B: Or someone. Someone. And I appreciate people when I know what I'm doing. Like, when they're like, have you reset the router? Yeah, that's why I'm calling you, because I reset the router and it's still doing the same thing. Like, I've reset the router. I need a technician. The ones that are like, you know what? They don't even question it. They're just like, we'll send a technician out. Last time they did that, they were like, yeah, your router's broken. Like, hey, when the guy hooked it up last week, he hooked up a broken router. Like, yeah, no shit, dude. Like, I knew it wasn't me, bro. You know? But I know it's not their fault either. You know what I mean? And I just. I Appreciate it when they know, like, my attitude is sometimes I just want to vent because you represent the company that is supposed to be helping me, you know, And I'm not trying to be a dick. Yeah, I know it's not you that did this to me, you know, Hastings, I know it's not you. [01:04:15] Speaker A: Yeah. And, like, it's helpful that we're all working for the same company. I'm, like, in house tech support, so, like, people are a little nicer. But I got a couple of. On Saturday, people are hard up if they're calling you on Saturday. Like, they know that it's a skeleton crew. Like, they really need your help if they're calling on a Saturday. And so, like, I got a couple of those kind of responses, like, yep, did that. Did that already. Like, can we try something else? And I'm just always trying to be like, oh, yeah, totally. Just, you know, just for the sake of my notes, you know, could we try that again just so I can say I did it? You know, that. That kind of thing. And, like, just being positive and nice with them goes a long fucking way. And sometimes it's not till the end of the call. Sometimes they're a dick until the thing's fixed, and then they're the nicest person ever once. Once their problem's fixed. You know? Dealt with that today. I had a district manager on the phone who was just a knob, the whole phone call. And then I fixed his thing. And, I mean, I would have gotten a beer with that guy. [01:05:26] Speaker B: You know, the other thing is, is engagements. I. I pray for engagements. I want engagements. I want to be able to talk to people about. And, dude, it's not necessarily. I want to talk to him about Christ right away. Like, we can get there, because that's going to come up. Because that's what dictates my life. Oh, my gosh, I'm so gassy. But part of. Part of, like, what? I. Like, there was a time I was praying for engagements, and it was like, every dude I came across was like, wanted to tell me about their divorce. And I didn't ask, you know, I'm just asking, hey, man, how you doing? And all of a sudden, they're like, oh, good. Like, and I just, hey, you got kids, man? Oh, that's cool, dude. Like, you know, and then they're like, yeah, going through divorce. And it's like, oh, crap, dude. Like, if, you know, if it's not over yet, dude, I'd still try. Like, until. Until she signs those papers. I'd still Give it a shot, dude. And then that's when I'm like, I go into where I'm at, and a lot of the guys end up wanting to talk about the Lord, and it's just crazy. Motorcycles, dude. [01:06:38] Speaker A: On my end. Mm. You can hear that? Yeah. [01:06:41] Speaker B: Yeah, you should really yell up. Yell. Yell at them. Tell me. Trying to record a podcast. [01:06:46] Speaker A: I'm trying to do a fucking. Dude, you're a maniac. That was crazy the other week. Hey, but, dude, you might be the only person who told them that. They might have talked to 10 people about their divorce, and you were the only one who said, try to work it out, dude. [01:07:05] Speaker B: I. Dude, we had a guy in our men's group. He called me one day. I. I met him at. At the men's retreat, and he's talking about, you know, struggles in his marriage. And, you know, they. It's their second marriage, both of them. They both have kids, but they also have adopted kids together. And so he calls me, goes, hey, man, I want to talk to you. And I'm thinking, like, cool, dude. I'm about to. I'm about to speak some life into this dude. He's like, hey, like, when you went through your divorce, like, how'd you. How'd you handle the house situation? I'm like, dude, so she wants a divorce. I'm like, it's over. He's like, no, she does. I do. I want the divorce. And I was like, oh, well, I'll tell you how I handle the house situation. I said, but let's pray, dude, because I'm not gonna. I don't bless this. Like, I'm not. I'm not behind this at all. Like. Like, if. If your wife wants to work it out, you work it out. You know, there's more involved than just you two. You got a house full of kids that are looking at you too, and now you're just. You're just willing to call it quits. And he was like, yeah, you know, like, you know, I'm not really. You know, I'm not really. Just. I'm just not into it, you know? Like, you know, I'm just gonna. And I'm just like, dude, I was so disappointed in this dude. Like, he. His housewarming party invited me to his birthday invite. I didn't respond, like, yeah, I want nothing to do with you, bro. Like, you are not a dude I want to roll with. Like, when I started the. When I got these guys together and said, hey, we're gonna have a Bible study on every other Tuesday, I said, I'm gonna be straight up. If you don't want to be a better man in general, this ain't the spot for you. If you don't want to be held accountable for your actions and you're not going to receive correction, this ain't the spot for you. We could just be straight up. Like, I don't want to sit here and waste time on guys that just checking the box of, oh, I'm going to study, babe. Oh, you know, I'm doing this on Tuesdays. I'm busy on Tuesdays because I'm going to a bi. I don't want that. I want guys that are, like, legitimately wanting to be better people, like, better men for all the way around, spiritually, emotionally, physically, and and mentally, like, let's do this. And it's all going to focus around the Bible. That's just where it's at. [01:09:15] Speaker A: Yeah. Yeah. And I mean, that's. I think. I think that prayer really, more than anything, changes you and changes for sure, your outlook. And I'm still not, you know, really sure, you know, the idea that prayer changes things, it's like, even if that's true, I don't know what that means. You know what I mean? There seem to be examples of that in the Bible, but, like, we know God knows everything. We know God's got a plan. Nothing's thwarting that plan. So I don't really know what it means for prayer to change something. [01:09:55] Speaker B: I ain't going to lie, bro. I've prayed for passion. I prayed like, hey, Lord, like, you made it happen already, and I probably should have prayed about that. So I'm just gonna throw out my prayer now just because, like, you already handled it. But, you know, like, I just want to make sure I. I get on that list for prayed about this. You know what I mean? [01:10:18] Speaker A: And I mean, if there's any option of like, a multiverse type situation where, like, that didn't happen, just. But honestly, you know, I won't ask any questions. [01:10:27] Speaker B: Take the situation with number four. I mean, like, prayer changes that aspect of things, you know, like, yeah, there is an ass. There's a human part of me. It. It dictates. It dictates my day. There's a human part of me that wants to walk by the neighbor downstairs and just be like, oh, like. Like there is nothing more classless than you, you know? But then, like, I'm like. I'm like, well, is that really going to bless my prayer time? You know, saying something about her mom Is not going to bless my prayer time. [01:11:04] Speaker A: It's. [01:11:04] Speaker B: If anything, it's gonna hurt my little one. You know what I mean? [01:11:07] Speaker A: Yeah. [01:11:08] Speaker B: I mean, like today she's sitting there, she's listening to this. Gosh, this. This guy gets on my nerves. I'm sorry, dude. Franklin. What is his name? Frankie Franklin or something? Forest. Forest. Franklin Forest. He's got that song. I don't know if you listen to Christian music like on the regular, but. [01:11:29] Speaker A: Nah, I do. [01:11:30] Speaker B: I try and listen to only worship music or Christian hip hop. Well, this Frank, the. This Forest Frank has this song and it's. It's real popular. Let me tell me if you've heard it. I was down, but now. Okay, I hate the song. And everybody I talked to. [01:11:51] Speaker A: That's a maroon 5 sample, isn't it? [01:11:53] Speaker B: Yeah, dude. Everybody I talked to is like, have you heard Force Frank? And I'm like, yeah, not a fan, dude. Like, when I said Christian rap, I meant like Christian rap, not like, you know, not this guy. Well, anyhow, likes his song your ways better. And it's like his number one song right now. Well, it's probably number three, but really likes it. And so like to. Ooh, gotta delete those ones. Number four. Number four really likes it. And so today she was listening to it. She puts it on every time we're in the car. And I look over and her eyes are just closed and she's singing it and you know, just. It's. It's basically saying like, you're ways better and it's slow. Hold on. So she's listening to that and she's got her eyes closed while she's singing it the whole time in the passenger seat. And I'm like trying to drive and watch her because I'm just like embracing this moment. And so I asked her after the song was over, I didn't want to interrupt her. And I said, what were you thinking of? And she goes, family. Like she wants the family back together so bad. And. And it breaks my heart because, like, her and God want that. It ain't happening. I'm sorry, I'm not going, not, not entering that cell again. You know, I mean, you don't get out of jail just to walk right back in and you don't bond out. Just be like, hey, I'm gonna turn myself in. [01:13:26] Speaker A: You don't go back to jail with the key around your neck. [01:13:30] Speaker B: Yeah, but you know, like, you. That was today. Now rewind. Three days ago, I could have very well been like, yeah, she's selfish and you know, she's. It's probably a mixture of her coming down from being high right now, you know, and. And, you know, there's only. There's a matter of time before she figures it out, because we watch Cops together. And she'll be like, why is the cop doing that? I said, well, he had marijuana on him, and marijuana is illegal, and marijuana is a drug, and you shouldn't do it because it changes your mind, and it actually changes the way your brain functions if you do it more than three times in one month. So I break it down to her. It's only a matter of time before she, you know, puts two and two together. Like, man, Mom's car always smells. You know, what does that smell? They already know. I don't lie, so if she gonna ask, I'm gonna tell her. But I did tell her today. She was like, can I. Can I dye my hair purple? I said, I'll get temporary dye for you, but if you want it done, like, you know, permanent, you know, for, you know, however long dye stays in. So you gotta talk to your mom. She's like, oh, my gosh, she's gonna say no. So. Well, here's what you do. You sit her down, you say, mom seeing of the world, man. Like, you know, like, if I can't do it now, I'm never gonna be able to do it, Mom. You know, it's the end of the world. I just want to live while we still got some time left. [01:14:54] Speaker A: I was like, don't you want me to have. Don't you want me to have purple dreadlocks in the apocalypse? You know, like, killing a road warrior? [01:15:03] Speaker B: Play it on. Play it on a scene of the world. And you. You wanted to have some fun before the world ends. I was like, she might buy it, dude. She goes, okay, yeah, that might work. I was like, yeah, yeah. Really might. [01:15:15] Speaker A: Side note, as a barber, don't let her do that down to the roots, because they got a. Bleach her hair for that, and it can damage your scalp and shit. And, you know. Yeah, I know they probably wouldn't do that to her because she's so young, but, like, don't. Don't let her. [01:15:34] Speaker B: Well, I'm not gonna let her bleach it to go purple. You go purple over the brown, you're not gonna go bleach it. That's the part that ruins the hair. [01:15:44] Speaker A: Yeah. [01:15:46] Speaker B: Yeah. [01:15:46] Speaker A: Well, if it's done professionally, it'll probably be fine, but I. I wouldn't fuck around with the roots. I. I Never proved it, but I started going bald pretty quickly. Pretty quickly after a couple of bleach jobs. Yeah. [01:16:03] Speaker B: You bleached your hair? [01:16:05] Speaker A: I did a couple times. [01:16:07] Speaker B: Was this in the 90s or the early 2000s? [01:16:11] Speaker A: Well, yeah, but the. The time right before I started to notice my hair going, I had bleached it green. I was like 19, and it. I had bleached it purple, like, earlier that year. And it was not long after that I started to notice the thinning. [01:16:33] Speaker B: Okay, so I thought you were gay. You're not gay. [01:16:35] Speaker A: You. [01:16:36] Speaker B: You bleached it. Like colors that represent. Not represent, but kind of go with who you are. I did the whole, like, bleach the hair and let me be blonde. And then. [01:16:49] Speaker A: And then I did that when I was like, 14. [01:16:52] Speaker B: Well, I did that. And here's the thing. Like, I did it at home with my aunt. She's bleaching all the, all the, you know, guys and girls hair. I get on the end of it, of this wait list. Only got enough for one setting, so my hair ended up coming out orange. Yeah. So, yeah, so I. I shaved it that day and got called Dennis Rodman for a while when I played basketball. But then when I got a jobby job when I got older, I did the. What are those? Like, those snow tips or whatever they are, you know, talking about bleach? [01:17:24] Speaker A: Yeah, the frosted tip. [01:17:26] Speaker B: Yeah, Frosted. Yeah, I thought, you know, I thought, oh, this is gonna look so cool. [01:17:29] Speaker A: Dude. [01:17:30] Speaker B: Dude. It was like $350 to get it done. I look so good. Yeah. And that was in 99, bro. [01:17:38] Speaker A: Yeah. [01:17:41] Speaker B: Yeah. [01:17:41] Speaker A: I. My sister did it before she went to beauty school, and I was like, 14, you probably remember, because you were around at the time. But, yeah, it just kind of came out orange. And I was trying to look like Kurt Cobain, but the problem was, like, I was still in the process of growing my hair out, so it was. I just sort of looked like Eminem. [01:18:11] Speaker B: Yeah. Nice. Yeah. So, I mean, for people who don't believe, I mean, meditation's always good, but prayer, I mean, it's to your higher power. For us, it's. It's. It's Christ and only Christ, because. [01:18:30] Speaker A: For. [01:18:31] Speaker B: Us, there is no other. But I know, like, I was talking to number one, and she was like, you know, like, I love your podcast, but, like, you know, my least favorite's that one you did on, like, Revelation. But I know that's your thing. Like, you know, I know that, like, you're into that, so it's cool. And I'm like, oh, I wonder how many more other people we have listening are like, oh, here they go. I'm gonna skip this one. This one's about Christianity. [01:18:53] Speaker A: That's so weird because I just feel like we talk about that so much that, like, who would want to listen to this without that. [01:19:02] Speaker B: There? I think there's probably something like that as well, because, like, my pen pal was like, I want to hear your podcast. I was like, no, you don't. You're definitely not gonna think I'm saved. [01:19:14] Speaker A: Thus the pseudonyms. [01:19:17] Speaker B: Yeah, God knows my heart. Although my podcast doesn't. Doesn't show. I know his. [01:19:25] Speaker A: I don't think. [01:19:25] Speaker B: Yeah, dude, I don't either, honestly. So I try and keep it real. You know, I. I talk the same here that I do at work. I'm not going to fake the funk. I want to be approachable. I don't want to be one of those guys where people are like, oh, I don't want to go to him, cuz. Oh, my gosh, he's so, like, you know, he's. What was that? What's that? So heavenly minded. You're no earthly good. You kind of said it tonight. But, you know, like, I feel that's part of where. That's part of why people approach me is because I'm never going to try and be something I'm not. Like, if. [01:19:59] Speaker A: Yeah, if. [01:20:00] Speaker B: If that's how I talk. That's how I talk. But what do you want to talk about next week, man? [01:20:08] Speaker A: Hey. Huh? I'm doing a podcast. No, you're good. [01:20:13] Speaker B: Doing a podcast. Pops, your mom said you wanted to go to the store. [01:20:27] Speaker A: Must have. I mean, must have told him three times what I was doing tonight. [01:20:32] Speaker B: Dude, I heard you when you walked in to get water. You're like, yeah, I'm doing a podcast right now. And he walked back out. [01:20:39] Speaker A: What are you doing? [01:20:42] Speaker B: Dude, I. Dude, I wonder if he. Like, I wonder if there was a part of him that was fearful in opening that door. Like, man, I hope I don't open the door. This guy watching some porn, just rubbing one out. You know what I mean? Like, I wonder if my dad did that once. He walked in on me. Oh, my gosh, the shame in my eyes. The shame. [01:21:05] Speaker A: Don't come in here. [01:21:07] Speaker B: That was his noises. That was his. He was like, oh, man. [01:21:14] Speaker A: Why is that? The universal sound for catching someone doing something. [01:21:24] Speaker B: I shouldn't be in here. Yeah, the door was closed for a reason. [01:21:29] Speaker A: Yeah, dude, next week. I don't know, man. Let's see Yeah, I don't know. We could text about it, but you. [01:21:46] Speaker B: Still good for next week? I mean, it's the day before a couple days before. It's the second, right? Couple days before fourth July. [01:21:54] Speaker A: Yeah, I should be okay. I don't know. [01:21:59] Speaker B: Probably gonna have to miss the following one, right? [01:22:02] Speaker A: I don't know. [01:22:04] Speaker B: Let's see. [01:22:05] Speaker A: We get our pod. It's possible. Yeah, we get our pod or. [01:22:11] Speaker B: No, that's the night. [01:22:12] Speaker A: And that. [01:22:12] Speaker B: That's the ninth. [01:22:14] Speaker A: The seventh. Yes. So the seventh is the Monday we get the pod, and we're trying to be out on Wednesday, so. Yeah, I might have to miss the week after, but. But we can. We can catch up that weekend, and we have a couple banked, so we could miss a week if we had to. I'm just worried about editing. I'm. I'm not finding any time to edit right now, so I'll. I'll try to chip away at that. [01:22:45] Speaker B: Where I can, but I'll fight off the hounds. [01:22:50] Speaker A: I know, I know. You're the one that gets all the hate because you've got all the listeners. [01:22:58] Speaker B: They all enjoy you, though, man. They all enjoy you. They all want to know what you look like. I finally showed stretch marks what you look like. I got a picture of you and your mom at Jay's Air Force graduation. Ah. [01:23:13] Speaker A: Oh, yeah, That's a good picture. Yeah, I don't look like that anymore. [01:23:19] Speaker B: No, no. I told him. I said, nah, he's bald now. [01:23:22] Speaker A: He's bald and fat. I didn't say, he looks like a fat Monopoly man, dude. I literally was looking at myself in the mirror today, just like, what happened? And I just, like, just squeezed my little tit, and I was like, I could definitely be an A cup almost, dude. [01:23:45] Speaker B: This is real. So I'm like, week six in the gym. I was already expecting results, but I'm not, like, losing any weight. I'm feeling more strength, you know? Like, I'm getting muscle, but, like, my scales not going down. And so I'm in. I'm in the pool the other day with stretch marks, and number four wanted to go in the pool, so we went down there, and this girl sits. She sits across from us, and I'm like, oh, gosh. Like. Like, she's. She's everything I like, you know? And so I'm like, you know what? I do have to go to the bathroom. Okay. Like, okay, cool. She's got a hat over her face. So I go. I get out of the pool, walk to the restroom. I'm in the restroom, shirtless, of course. And I look in the mirror and I'm like, okay, try and make this look better. You know, like you're about to leave. You know, like, try and make it look somewhat doable. [01:24:38] Speaker A: Like, where do you reorganize these boxes? [01:24:41] Speaker B: Yeah. Where do you put the pants? Where do you put the short line at? You know what I mean? Like, do you pull them up a little bit so it looks like you're just straight down? Or do you let them hit over the bell under the belly? You know? So, yeah, I'm like. And then I see my tits, and I'm like. [01:24:55] Speaker A: I'm like, well, if that's not the title of this episode, I don't know what is. Then I see my tits. [01:25:03] Speaker B: I look at them, and I'm like, okay, shoulders back, chest up. Like, put. Put your. And I'm like, there's nothing helping these things. Like, they look like they're coming in like. Like I'm about to get, like, a chest, like, muscle chest. But like, they also. [01:25:19] Speaker A: Young woman. [01:25:20] Speaker B: Yeah, but they also have, like, those little cellulite dimples, like, at the top in the corners, right under the underarms. And I'm like, oh, my gosh. You know, of course you got to pinch the nipples to get them out. You know what I mean? So I'm rubbing them. I'm like, oh, man, dude, I had to walk back to the pools to walk. Ashamed, dude. I just want. I just ran and jumped in. You know what I mean? [01:25:41] Speaker A: She. And she goes, why are your tits purple? [01:25:47] Speaker B: If I would had a cell phone, I'd been like, hey, dude, bring me a shirt and push me in right when I get by the pool. Yeah. [01:25:57] Speaker A: Oh, man. Yeah. It takes so long. [01:26:02] Speaker B: It didn't like, five years ago. I mean, five years ago was the first time I went to the gym, dude, I dropped a ton of weight. I looked decent. My arms. But then again, like, I. I don't know if it's because, like, I do take a couple days off in between working out when I have. When I have number four. Because, like, sometimes it's hard. But now I told her, hey, if you want to be on your. Your tablet all day, you're going to the gym with me. Me. Like, you're going to be working out. Like, we'll go to the local gym, the community gym, and you're going to be working out with me. I don't care what it is. You're going to do something. Like, you have to. I want you to be physical. [01:26:41] Speaker A: Yeah. [01:26:41] Speaker B: So that's where it's at. [01:26:43] Speaker A: That's good. All right, man. [01:26:46] Speaker B: All right, man. I love you. This has been pseudonyms. I've been. I've been Donner with my co host, Hastings, and. Yeah, until next time. We'll think of something. Man, I want to get back on like. Like a little death tip or something, you know, like something of that nature, not death itself, but, you know, something that's something that's not. Not. Not in everybody's alley, you know? [01:27:15] Speaker A: Yeah. All right. I like that. [01:27:19] Speaker B: Yeah. All right. All right, well, we'll figure it out during the week. A good book to read, though, if you're in the mood to challenge yourself personally is Can't Hurt Me by David Goggins. Like it is. Like it is. Look in the mirror and be brutally honest with yourself and then set some goals. So I kind of like remember that when I want to give up four miles in or, you know, 30ft in. [01:27:48] Speaker A: Yeah. [01:27:49] Speaker B: Just go. All right, man. I love you. [01:27:53] Speaker A: All right. Love you, man. Take it easy. [01:27:56] Speaker B: Bye.